sorry or the late reply. alot has been going on... yes... i do have family members that know about the situation but at the same time my family isn't exactly living in a white picketed fence. they kinda see this problem as a life lesson, it happens to everyone atleast once && i'm on my own, pretty much. since they don't really care much to help. there so busy with their own lives. yes i've been to support groups but they always make me feeel so weird. he's a psychopath... i have no idea what he's planning but after all this time i've figured out a way to just avoid him all together. i saw him face to face a couple of weeks ago and when i asked him y he cant just leave me alone, he explained how he thinks i'm still in love with him even after everything we've been through and the restraining order is a facade to make me look like the crazy person so if i "magically end up dead, he wont be to blame" so i had to change my name, do everything else i could to try and get away. things aren't 100% perfect but i don't feel like such a confused mess like i did when i first wrote that post, and thanks for replying.
i really appreciate it when ppl try to show support since i dont have it much often