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Question Am I depressed?? - 08-22-2007, 10:53 AM

Okay, so, this may sound stupid, but I dont know if Im depressed or not.

Loads of people have told me they think I am, but Im convinced Im not. However, after hearing it a zillion times, you start to think, well, maybe??

Lets see.. I have really violent moodswins. Like, Ill be laughing and joking, and then the next minute, screaming, crying and punching walls. I dont know why, either. It doesnt make sense. Its just, like, something has snapped and I flip out at whoever is nearest to me.

I also go into really, really dark moods. I wont want to get out of bed for days. I just want to curl into a little ball and stay there, in the dark, on my own. I obviously HAVE to drag myself up to go to school, but when Im there, Im in my own world. I dont speak to anyone. I just walk around with this really blank expression on my face, or so Im told.

Im suicidal, too. All the time. It sorta rules my mind. Its even taken over the #1 spot in my head, above how much I eat, which I never expected.

I dont really know what Im expecting from this. None of you know me, so its not like you can instantly decide..

Im sorry if Im not at all depressed, and you lot all just think Im some stupid little kid going on about nothing. Its what most people seem to think about me.

Sorry, this made no sense. Feel free to just ignore me. I wont take any offence. Im used to it.


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08-22-2007, 03:22 PM

YES I think you are definitely depressed, and i would suggest seeing a doctor as soon as possible. i would like to know if you also have really up times, becuase you could be bipolar. I am not a doctor so i dont know, but there is always a possibility.
Also you have the right to have an opinion, and the opinion you expressed of yourself shows signs of depression. If you feel that you can no longer control the suicide idization, go to your local hospital. i have problems with that. \
If you ahve any question or anything please PM me, sounds like you need some to ask a few questions to and trust me i know a lot
Kiah


5 months till i see a doctor, maybe someone can figure out what is wrong with me.
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08-23-2007, 02:34 AM

I do have really up times. Like, Ill get really hyper. Ill have a burst of energy, and be laughing, and running round, and to be honest, its probably really annoying because Im really like and then it just goes. Suddenly. But whats bipolar mean?? I dunno what it is.. lol

The thing about seeing a doctor is, well, its complicated. Im 14, so, they couldnt do anything without my Mum being there anyway. And I cant tell her. I know, Im just scared, whatever. But, I cant. I just cant.

Ill probably PM you when I get home. (Im on holiday, but coming home later today.)

Thanks.

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Emma xxx


You think the only people who are people,
Are the people who look and think like
you;
But if you walk the
footsteps
of a
stranger
You'll learn things
You never knew
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Because everyone who said:

"I'll
Be
There
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08-23-2007, 05:03 AM

The mood swings from really hyper to really down sound like bipolar disorder to me, although that's not a professional opinion or anything. Besides that, all the things you listed are major symptoms of depression, especially the constant thoughts about suicide.
Basically I agree with everything beautifulgirl said. I hope you can get help soon.
Good luck.


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08-23-2007, 05:07 AM

Hmm.. I dont actually know what bipolar is. im googling it now! =]

Thanks.

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Emma xxx


You think the only people who are people,
Are the people who look and think like
you;
But if you walk the
footsteps
of a
stranger
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You never knew
You never knew


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Because everyone who said:

"I'll
Be
There
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08-23-2007, 08:02 AM