07-15-2007, 09:39 PM
Hey I've been right there with you..
I mean I don't know where you live or anything but if you're in the US you probably know about the AP system here..well, I was so stressed about AP exams I kept just making myself forget things because of my nerves and everything. What I wanted the most was to come out with top scores, to get 5's and 4's on ever exam. I didn't get it on one. I was really upset with myself because I was the mediocre one. While my friends were pouting because they got all fives and one four I was wishing I could have their grades and lying saying mine hadn't arrived because I was ashamed of them.
My mom caught me crying after we had found out about my grades ont he AP test, and she talked with me about it. She told me, that it's not everything, and that when you get out 'in the real world' with a job and everything, they're not going to look to see if you got a 5 or a 3 they're going to look at other things like what degree you have, and how many years you spent in college and stuff like that. I still didn't feel better, and then my mom told me that regardless of how I do with testing, she knows I'm smart and that I retain information better than a lot of people do. Doesn't it suck how mother's can be right? Like the next day, (yes bad example) my friends and I went to see Harry Potter, and I was answering like all their questions about what happened. And they're like, "I didn't remember that, and I read it just a few weeks ago." Thing is, I read it like a year or more ago, lol.
Basically, what I'm trying to tell you in my massive ramble, is don't be so hard on yourself. So you might not be a good tester, I'm sure you have wonderful skills and things will turn out all right in the end of the day. Just do your best that you can, I'm sure you know things but you're just making yourself nervous.
You'll do great, and you're not mediocre, exam scores can't define you anyway.
Sorry if that didn't help, I'm here if you need anyone to talk with.
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