OMG! This spring break has been SO BUSY. But, I've really enjoyed it. Doing play rehersal has been fun. I REALLY love this play and I REALLY love acting. It's been so long! I hate the way i have to act in parts of it but other parts i'm enjoying it.
And Matt and I are like.. WAY closer than where we were.. which i didn't know was possible. But Matt has changed SO MUCH since we became friends that it's amazing.
And oh god. Matt's so freaking cute. <3. I REALLY HOPE HE DOESNT READ THIS BECAUSE HE WOULD BE LAUGHING AT MY DORKINESS RIGHT NOW.
BUT OH MAN.
It's nice having someone whose cute for a boy..
Like, Jason had a sweet face-- but he was REALLY overweight.. and needless to say I *love* having Matt being the beast he is. He has such a sexy back
Like with jason i understood that if we got mugged- it would probably would suck because jason couldn't fight. But no. I'm hanging with an ex-thug. This boy is used to street fights.. and I LOVE HIS PUPPY!
And i've had so many moments where I wanted to say those three words.. and it's like. Crap. I don't want to! ... at the same time I know I do-- and when i think about it.. I always have.. even Jason knew it when i was with him.. Even when i was with Jason, Matt was still the most important person in my life... as horrible as that sounds..
and since we've been a couple everything has just felt really right.. I feel safe when I'm around him, and I have no fears of being myself. It's way nice.
Matt and I have been best friends.. And I know that during our time as friends I really did love him in a friendship way--- i think it was easy for it to change catergories.
I don't know.
BUT. I'm gonna refuse. Like- I'm not gonna say it. Not until I'm sure..
.... argh.. even though I couldn't ever deny it
I"M JUST RANTING
MAKING A JOURNAL ENTRY.
On the hijacking thread- so it's okay. no body cares what you say on the hijacking thread