02-21-2007, 08:37 AM
I know exactly what youre going through. I had a serious problem with depression and SI..my boyfriend at the time kept telling me that "i had no reason to feel this way" or "you need help" or "why do you gotta do that to yourself?" etc.
asking repetitive questions and not helping me at all. never understanding or listening, but i put up with it because i was so convinced he cared....
after he left, i fell apart.
I wanted the intimacy, feeling of closeness. i had some one night stands that i beat myself up over...
as for the drugs, the only thing i ever did was weed, nd it was cool...but i cant anymore...ugh.
ive never been on meds once in my life. i figured "hey, i made it this far without them..."
every person is different, nd i know that they've helped ALOT of people, but they aint for me...so no offense to anyone who is taking meds.
anyway, as for your mom telling you to get out of bed? well....maybe you could try to do something you like doing. not necessarily social, but something you can do by yourself to take your mind off your problems for a little while....?
I daydream alot. and i like to read alot too.
When i was younger, i went through something very traumatic, and novels were my escape.....
PM me if you want to talk, k?
[There is darkness in every heart] Ansem- Kingdom Hearts
[As for that abomination, It is the flawed product of a deranged mind. It has no place among us] Grand Councilwoman- Lilo&Stitch
If you lose hope, you will lose everything...
Misdirection is the key to victory, never attack what your enemy defends, never behave as your enemy expects, and never reveal your true strengths, if knowledge is power, to be unknown is to be unconquerable.