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i want to go back - 04-03-2006, 06:00 AM

i want to go back to starving myself, not because i feell fat, because i need to. i don't know why. i was thinking maybe the arguments will stop, and i just have a need.
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04-03-2006, 06:07 AM

That's just stupid. I realise that's blunt but dont go "hmm shall I go back to being depressed and obsessing about my weight every second of the day and being too weak to actually do things, looking ill, feeling ill yeah that sounds like fun"

When people go down a route of weight obsession and it leads them to severe illness that's one thing I can feel sympathy for, but deciding to be anorexic and ill like some pro-ana weirdo is just stupid. It will solve nothing and cause way more problems.


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04-03-2006, 06:14 AM

yer it is blunt.

i hated every min of being obsessed with my food, i hated it soo much, i got better. but i don't know why but i just have a need to go back. i know it is not the solution to anything. i just cant think straight. my head is everywhere, and i just...... i don't know, i feel the need. i don't know what to do.
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04-03-2006, 06:17 AM

You dont need to, you want to. This is your eating disorder and you're th eonly one who can take control, so do it. Keep eating and stay healthy rather than volountarily making yourself ill again and claiming you "need" to.


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04-03-2006, 06:20 AM

i don't know what to do. its just the overwealming urge. i don't know why, as i said i hated it. every moment.
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04-03-2006, 06:13 PM

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I actually agree with Foreverbroken on this one.
ditto that!
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04-03-2006, 10:26 PM

Starving sucks and makes u more and more inclined to think and obsess more, well that's what I've discovered anyway. When I am struggling I pray to God to give me the strength I need, it's sure not easy but w/ his help anything is possible and I am not giving up as I hope you don't either. Do you have anyone who you can talk to? I tried to do it on my own, (recovery) and quickly realized that with a little support and faith you (we) can do it!
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04-04-2006, 01:30 AM

its kind of hard to explain, and you probaly all think im stupid for thinking this, and i probaly am. I don't really want to go back to ald ways, but my head keeps telling me to. i have told my bf how i feel but he does not know what to do, and he is worried as hell, which i didn't want to happen. i don't know who else to turn to

i gave up on god along time a go, it was mainly my churches falt.
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