[smoke and mirrors]

right now i'm sitting with a gun beside me. i really don't know whats stopping me. the more i think about it, it'd just be nice to finally be done with all this. even though i can't stand it any more, i'm still here taking it. i don't even know who i am anymore, i'm tired of reaching out only to get rejected just bc i wanted to feel a little loved for once, i'm sick of hearing how every thing i do is awful and selfish. whats the point of being alive if you don't even feel it?

[EmilyRose]

I know how you feel.
And i've been there. unfortunatley, at my suicide attempt i failed.
but even though. i totally hate myself for not going through with it all the way. i'm kinda glad that i'm still alive. yeah.. life sucks, but everyone has issues, and how you cope with those issues should determine how you live your life. i dont know whats stopping you either, but maybe some part of you isnt ready to let go yet, maybe you feel that if you just live a little while longer then you will find that someone who cares for you. Me wanting to commit suicide was because i didnt feel loved. but i was kinda wrong. and if you dont feel loved, then maybe your worng to. i dont know you, but i'll be happy to consider you as a friend if you want. and i'm always here if you want to talk. Thta is if you think my advice doesnt suck. cause if you do, i understanfd. anyways....
you may think that ppl call you selfish and aweful now, but kjilling yourself will be the most selfish thing that anyone could ever do. hahahaa, i sound like a freakin hypocrite, but anyways.... i know you've probably heard this beofre. "life gets better" i mean who hasnt, but in a way its sorta true. life sucks, thats how it is, but it doesnt always suck, if your willing ot live it in a way that you feel makes you happy. suicide isnt the answer.
i dunno if i helped, but thats just my opinion.

XXX
Best of luck
and Take care.

[alexa]

OMFG its like you know my life story! *hugs* i know its hard trust me i was right there just like 2 days ago and i am still not sure about decisions i need to make and i know either way i am gonna be hurt but anyways life will get better killing yourself is not the way trust me i know i have failed many times and i am happy i did...PM me please so we can talk about this before you make any rational decisions *hugs again* i am here for you!

[paws]

there must be some little part of you that doesn't want to give up, otherwise you wouldn't have posted here.

while ever theres a little bit of hope, things can get better.

don't do anything. just keep talking to us.

[beautifulgirl]

I am trying to recover and on my good days i am so happy that i am still here. Even it is to listen to the next marilyn manson song, or to play with my cat. There is always a reason to go on, even if it is to learn something new, there is always a reason.
kiah