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andrew is gone, well actually he left march 28th. so its been 14 days... literally 2 weeks.
and i haven't felt this sad in a very long time... i thought maybe over time i would b ok with knowing that he's so far away, or maybe it wouldn't stop me from living my life but i can't help but feel sad knowing that time isn't going to make things better the way i want them to.
my birthday is coming up...

ok... so today was a mixture of both good and bad.. and i kinda feel like this is going to be one of those long journal rants where i just talk about a bunch of random **** thats going on inside my head cos i kinda feel like if i dont say it out loud then my head will explode. so yeah. i went to work, started at 8:30. that was hell... oh gawd waking up that early after being out so late. haha... ...

haha... sssoooo... i think i asked myself what would happen the next time i post. well i quit smokin pot thats what.
I mean... Of course its not addictive cos its not really a drug. M.j is all about choice and ppl that think thats not true are idiots of course, but eh... i mean... for some odd reason i just dont feel like i want to anymore. and considering that i use to think of it as a crutch f...

wow, ok... so its been a while. a very long while actually since i've wrote in my blog so i guess i'll just do a quick update/vent about sh*t. haha. I took a look back at some of my old post && its amazing to see yourself from a different point of view. i think i've changed and also alot in my life has changed but if i tried to explain how exactly it would take a while. i've been smoking alot of ...

****.. i guess i got like a bit off track. but nothing good has happened. alotof bad has just.. ugh. and the dissapointment. oh the dissappointment, but i guess i'll try to stay positive.

1. caprisun and i danced with glowsticks in the dark.
2. i saw date night. oh how i love steven and tina.
3. this dude i met on the bus wont stop calling me. haha
4. i started theraphy
5. may 21st is almo...

i think i should start this thing where i list 5 things that made me smile today.

1. lizz told me she missed me.
2. i did composite, and i didnt screw up.
3. i found someone to go to the ok go concert with me.
4. i think roshelle is starting to trust me
5. uumm... ****... what else made me smile.
uuhh.. wow. this is harder then i expected. lol
i guess i'll say my kitty made me smile. cos...

why cant i let him go ?
he's such a jerk.
david this. david that.
and why do other ppl have the power to control me.
i should be able to say whatever i want.
aaron this. aaron that.
and tomorrow i have to go to work.
gggrrr
sleep this. sleep more that

i wonder if they make pills for ppl who just ... idk...
ppl who are self centered, ignorant. vindictive.
and just love attention.
ppl who love drama. so they create it just cos their bored with there own life.
or ppl who care to much what others think.
i dont think so.
but if they did. i think i would buy some,
idk... i dont even know who i am anymore.
im so lost and confused.
and everyo...

the new movie was bullshiot...
im so dissapointed...

omfg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the new harry potter movie comes out in like... 16 DAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
im so exicted.
i know the movie wont be as good as the book.
but still... im looking forward to it more than ever.
^_^