ive spoken to people about my self harm problem. They say i should avoid what makes me want to cut. What happens if i cant get away from the things that make me cut?
My family, school, my friends
My family dont like the kind of music i listen to and the films i watch. It always comes up in arguments. I like listening to kerrang and scuzz and watch horror movies. They say the music would make you cut your wrists (not true) and the horror films are for psychos.
I have no confidence to go to school yet i have to. I go and i barely talk to anyone the whole 7 hours. i just walk with friends who talk to eachother. They arent great friends. They all decided to go to a gig but never invited me. The horrible thing is, is that they are the nicest people in school.
My best friend of about 12 years is moving to another country in a few days too. i dont knwo how il cope with her gone. We had a fight and barely talked to eachother but she is still my best friend. If she goes i dont know how il cope. People keep asking if im gonna miss her. YES! definately. No one will know how badly i will miss her though.
Im a very secretive person and i keep myself and my thoughts to myself (until recently when ive talked on fti). I dont like to let people get close to me because when they do they always hurt me. its the story of my life.