posted 07-07-2008 06:16 AM by
I can't sleep... then I can't wake up. I'm exhausted but I can never fall asleep until the early hours of the morning. I feel like I'm losing control. Every disapointment hammers me further down. I didn't drink last night... that was a big thing for me. I finished work at midnight, then took some sleeping tablets and waited for them to take effect. I doubt I'll make it through tonight; but one night is a start.
I don't know what to hope for anymore. I always wanted a good job, marriage and eventually kids. But now... well now I don't know. Why have all that?