posted 05-01-2008 04:12 PM by
It's the 11th/12th day now.
I'm losing count to be fair.
I don't think I'm doing well though.
I hate myself more then ever.
I hate it when I don't eat, I hate it when I eat.
I hate myself even more, the way I look, the way I act, because I hurt myself and also because I don't.
Its tearing me apart!
Last night I had to draw on my arm to prevent myself from cutting, had to lay an sharp obj...