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have you ever been afraid to go to sleep

not that you will never wake up again

but afraid of what you might see ?

and what does it mean when you see something you dont want to in your dreams

?????

is it your fears?

or what you wish will happen?

but the things i see i would never wish would happen

so does that mean am scared of it ?

not sleeping is driving me insane
...

People are telling me to go to the doctors
am scared to though...
why should i ?
i will be ok right?
there is nothing wrong with me
am perfectly normal
mind you if i was i would have no need for this blog
i cant stop crying, i cant sleep, i keep getting rashes :S
i have suicidal tendencies and i want to make my self sick right now due to the bag of dolly mixtures av just munched
i fe...

I feel like everything inside me is coming out
But not in words and harsh feelings
But floods of tears and cries
That I have no control over

I just need to be held
Kept warm and safe
But even so
That can not last forever

I am growing up
I have to learn to stand on my own two feet
Loved ones can not hold my hand any more
I am alone, and it terrifies me

I need that hand
I ne...

Ehm this feels odd telling strangers but maybe no one will read

last night was bad for me...

i felt like crap, av not been sleeping well not for the past 3 nights anyway

and it is really getting to me

i used to self harm
and i used to be bulimic

and i thought i was over all that, but last night it just seemed easier that way

i was so close to cutting myself again

thank g...