posted 01-30-2009 12:15 AM by
one of the senior staff at 6th form said they're gonna talk to my art and geo teacher to try and get me some help in those subjects yay. i tried to talk to natalie yesterday (coz im in her form and sit behind her in bio so between form and bio its pretty much me and her) but i find it so hard all i keep thinking is that shes not interested in what im saying and that theres no way shes gonna ever go 4 an ugly b*stard lyk me. i dunno.
sat at the bridge again yesterday but didnt stay too long (too cold) its lyk a routine now finish work at 10ish and grab the 212 to the hill aand sit thinking on the bridge on friday hill. part of me wishes christie would meet me there to talk things out but i kno she wont. its so complicated with her part of me wants to hold her and never let go love her forever. but then theres a dark part of me that wants to bite into her throat or ripp it out and it scares me.
out of tym (i h8 having to blogg b4 6th form) but w.e ill try and get on l8r if poss