posted 09-21-2007 11:39 AM by
Okay I know two post in one day. But I have 2 hours to kill before I go to work.
So Lately I have gone back to church. I don't know how I feel about this. I sit down, pray, all that stuff but I just don't know.
Maybe its because I don't feel like I deserve anything or maybe because I am pretty apathetic about everything in life.
I just don't know anymore.
Anyone remember when they were younger and some things were just the way they were? I never questioned some things when I was younger. Like religion or family or stuff like that. It was embedded into me. God existed no question asked. But for years that has been so hard for me when it comes to that.
But then again a part of me is okay with this and just doesnt care
EH....I think I am having an inside struggle here.