Haven't been on here in an age, but heh it's good to rant sometimes.Feel slightly crap today, I keep getting absurdly jealous with no good reason to be.Bloody ridiculous, makes me feel like crap through.I hate the fact that some people can just click and it takes me forever to build friendships.It's not even their fault, but grr, I guess i'm just wishing for something unobtainable.Normality.
Most of the time i'm actually ok, went to Barcelona recently, and I was so relaxed out there, didn't worry about how people saw me-as soon as I get back home, going to college, i'm the exact ****ing same.doubting my abilities and judging myself against others.I know I shouldn't, because especially with work, it's not comparable.Otherwise it is but I still shouldn't contend with it.*Bashes head against brick wall*.
How do other people manage it-not constanly worrying about themselves and the way they're viewed.Starting to doubt i'll never be comfortable in my own skin.
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04-08-2011 01:07 PM