posted 02-22-2011 04:32 PM by
Firstly I don't expect anyone to read or respond to this I just need somewhere to write and get this out of my head and try to organize my thoughts.
I've been so good recently - not counting calories and eating healthy with some treats - although I have lost weight recently which health wise is not good...anyhow I was doing ok if anything not eating enough as least thats what other people said. Anyway all of a sudden I come home from the pub and I eat a regular portion of food then it slowly turns into too much and I'm purging again
Only had one disconcerting incident in the pub but mostly well on the whole it was good. Not anything enough to make me do that I have a lot in the recent past which hasn't triggered that. Although I do have therapy tomorrow and that makes me anxious so maybe thats also a contributor too. And I have felt like self harming recently, say the past few days. But after last time Im scared to cos of the mess I made of my arm...