posted 03-07-2008 04:40 AM by
I felt like im holding my breath. im holing everything in and it feels like im not breathing. it feels like it's been so long since i took a breath. it feels like im dead now. i feel numb. i hate this feeling.
i want to reach out to him sometimes just to feel. just to go back to that feeling that im here and alive. i want to lay in his arms just to know that there's some place out there where i am safe. where there's some shelter. but instead i push him away and tell him he can't handle it when so many night he saw the scars and was still ok.
i love him more than anything. i love the way he touches me. i love the way he looks at me. and i love the way i can cry in his arm and let everything flow out and he'll let me and tell me it's ok. i find comfort in him ive never found in anyone before. he keeps me safe
why can't i just let him keep me safe?