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10-07-2006, 12:06 PM
Today my mum gave me £50 to spend on new clothes (because i need them... lol)
And I tried on the big sizes (because they are baggy) and I bought them... my mum saw them and was like "Why are you buying those sizes??" I didnt explain so I took them back and found the smallest size i could fine (size 8) and that was still way too big for me...
I've finally realised how thin i am... too thin.. i still see myself as fat though...
*cries* what am i gonna do... i can do this on my own...
I don't want to see a docter or anything along those lines because i'm too scared :(
..but i do actually want to put on weight.. i'm still scared though.. it's a big step...
10-07-2006, 12:26 PM
ahh Lia *hugs tight* can u try to tell ur mom about it?
i know it will be hard but i mean before things get bad.....
u dont wanna lose anymore weight....can u write her a letter or sumthing?
or can u tell sumone else? pm me anytime ok kido
10-07-2006, 12:28 PM
Thanks.. but I've tried to talk to her.. i just cant tell her..
I dont know who i can tell...
10-07-2006, 12:44 PM
hey love, you know i am always here for you and i will try to help you as much as possable. ik have been there and i got through it. and i know you can too. you need to start eatin but start out with small portions of food. do go and eat alot cuz then you will feel like ****. but i am always here for you. we will get you through this k??? anorexia is bad. i was down to 85lbs when i was in the 8th grade and now i am a healthy 120lbs. if you need anything please let me know and i will try and help you k???
10-07-2006, 12:47 PM
Thanks Tendra. You're great!
I skipped breakfast today (i was sleeping; but i know that's no excuse) i had 1 sandwhich for lunch (well actually half of a sandwhich)... and i didnt eat dinner... (i came online instead)...
I'm not gonna say what my weight is.. cos i dont want to trigger anyone...
10-07-2006, 12:54 PM
you can tell me through IM if you wish. but i am not goin to pressure you into doin anything. and that is good, just keep eatin small meals and gradually work your way up to larger meals untill you can eat a normal meal. i mean i still fast every now and then but i am doin it to clean out my body of all the toxins that are in it. it will take awhile but i know you can do it.
10-07-2006, 12:54 PM
Hey i know exatly how you feel.
iv had a expirence like that a couple days ago when i put on my jeansand they fell off. but i still see myself as over wieght
id write more but im runing out the door sry
if you ever want to talk just send a message to anyone on this sight and thel be more then whilling to help :D
10-07-2006, 12:59 PM
Yeah, I still see myself as over weight.. but now i know; i'm not...
I just wish i would wake up one morning and it had all gone away, like it had never happened...
Tendra, i would tell you, but i feel too self concious atm...
10-07-2006, 01:01 PM
it is ok Lia, i understand. everything will be ok. i promise.
10-07-2006, 01:29 PM
Lia, if you ever need to talk then give me a call or something ok. I will talk to you so long as it isnt like midnight and I was sleeping, but yeah.
Listen I know how hard it is to gain the weight again, but now that you know that you need to do it then you know the first step ok.
Look after yourself.
10-07-2006, 03:55 PM
I´m a 6. How sick am I? :/
10-08-2006, 09:49 AM
It was annoying cos I couldn't find any 6's... the smallest they do here is 8 usually..
Tendra I'm gonna start those e-mails now...
10-09-2006, 08:20 PM
I know how you feel...I actually started buying clothes in the eight-year olds' section at walmart and I'm five foot eight. I bought a whole pajama set there and, other than the pants being more like capris, they fit me fine. :(
10-10-2006, 08:59 AM
Yeah... I used to be able to fit into 7 year olds clothes a few years ago (i was always really thin but took it too far :()
10-10-2006, 04:57 PM
hay love how u doin??? let me know if there is anything i can do. well i hope you are doin ok.
10-11-2006, 05:34 AM
Hiya, sorry I haven't been sending you those e-mails, but i will soon.. i promise.
I've been having to prepare for the young people looking around the school i go to.. and i have to help out this evening, etc..
I'm not doing to well... but i'll live..i think